Irony of the Energy Equation

The irony of pacing is not lost on me.  The truth is - when you need to spend the most energy taking care of yourself is when you're least able to do it!  Because, when you're not feeling well, when you're down & out, totally crashed -- that's when you most need to eat whole foods cooked from scratch and a clean, healthy house.  Yet that's also when you have the least amount of energy!

I've been on a bit of a roller coaster since my relapse started back in the fall.  Lately the downs just keep getting lower & lower.  Luckily, I try to keep whole home cooked foods at the ready (preparing them when I do feel good) and have completely revamped my cleaning & beauty supplies (buying and/or making things when I feel good).

Now, if only I could figure out how to PREDICT a crash.  That's something that I'm not sure many spoonies have completely figured out.  I was feeling pretty good this week after a restful weekend.  I felt a little crashed last week so, knowing I had scheduled too many commitments this week, I spent the whole weekend resting, recovering & preparing.  But I managed to throw myself into a full blown crash, the likes of which I haven't seen in over 2 years!  I woke up Wednesday morning and felt like I'd been hit by a truck.  Literally.  My whole body hurt... muscle pain (esp in my upper back & shoulders), joint pain (esp in my hips), nerve pain zinging up my leg with each step. Not sure how much rest I'll get this weekend, since my over commitment extends into the weekend, but hopefully I can catch up with a lazy start to the week.